Hey everyone.......I don't know why but I am super active during nights...Nocturnal.Engineering and hostel life made me more nocturnal definitely.!Nights associated with sleep followed by dreams and I am sick of dreams that never come true.But still I love my dreams and I want to dream however.Contradictory patterns of behavior eh?I think(hope) atleast few of you share my contradictory way of thinking...

I was just thinking what particular thing changed over lifestyle and living and in what way.Oh,I can think of too many such particular things!!!Hey blame the science and technology not me for just reasoning them out!Well fine,these things gave us many comforts and luxuries which I can never deny but I see a very big void nevertheless..Why is this happening to me?Is it right to blame the world or is it me who is responsible for this insanity?

I just wanna ask you something.Just suppose there is a guy who is a maestro.A genius in his domain.He sacrificed almost everything in his life to achieve something big.He never went out with friends;never visited relatives;never spend quality time with family.Everyday he was immersed in his work and persevered towards excellence.He pushed himself to limits everyday.Never compromised for anything mediocre.Day and night,workaholic..Ain't that great? After ten years he got the greatest recognition in his work and people across the world started to know him.He was felicitated by the local organizations too.Ain't that amazing??OH,WAIT!!!NONE OF HIS FAMILY MEMBERS IN THE AUDIENCE!!NO FRIENDS TOO!In fact,no one in the audience were known to him...Well,now if i ask myself how i feel about this man,I see no achievement;no honor;no praise.I just find a lonely soul who suffered and sacrificed everything to achieve something that could never bring back to him his true roots;his people.

And I never want such life guys.Many may not agree with me.They might feel that the aforementioned guy is a true achiever;a wizard.But I still feel he is a loser.My philosophy is simple:I am born in this world.I must live my life with the ones who know me and love me.I want regular stuff in life.I still like garlic bread ,chicken pizza.But sometimes I love roadside chat with friends.SUVs are truly amazing but once in a while a long walk in the cool evenings are divine.Armanis and Guccis are true stunners but a very old pair of jeans and an ill fitting tee gives you the comfort never felt before.Funny and stupid these might sound,but these are very true to me.Gospel true.
Guys,make plans for life-achievements,dream jobs,career,partner etc.But sometimes just relax.Don't take life toooooo seriously.Don't over plan and miss the very essence of life-spontaneity.
Take off your shoes and walk on the grass in mornings.Feel the wetness.Amuse yous skin.Face the rain drops and feel the sensation rather than running for place to prevent rain fro reaching you.Chuck your sun glasses and once in a while feel the heat.A cup of coffee while it is cold outside is truly great.Feel the smell of soil just when it starts raining.Feel the air,feel the ambience,feel the moon,feel the sun,feel the cool breeze.....All these things we encounter in everyday life but we appreciate them only once in so many days.These things won't change but our vision changes.Our perspective changes.If everything is beautiful everyday then it is a boring thing for sure.

Do what you want to do.Never regret any moment that made you happy.There is no crime in doing stuffs which are not hurting others.Embrace your flaws as tightly as you embrace your plus points.But do not regret at some later point of life for not doing what you truly wanted to do.Show care to people who deserve it.Love the ones who live with you.Forget enmity.Fall in love with life.Because life is the only personal thing you have got in this world........Just personalize it.Never follow a stereotype.
God bless
With love
Manoj

life is so .....

Well.after a long long time,I am back to blog.It feels good and better than the day i started to blog first.I wanted to share things with all.Many things happened around me and WITHIN me.Well,people who think i am being too philosophical or too not-so-normal,i can't help being so.Because that is what I am deep within!!Who can change a life just for a change's sake?It will be so fake,so unnatural.My true self is overt to all folks who know me.I want to tell you all first,I love you fellow humanity......
Now coming to me,I must first say that I started wondering why am I living this life which is not so happening!Which is all so boring and which is so hurting because of its unexpected results.Sometimes I see all my life passing in front of my eyes like a reel of a movie.It maybe a cliched statement but it is so true that I can't prevent myself from saying so.I had loads of fun from the day i gained knowledge of my existence.Lot of love from parents,friends and God Almighty.Few little fights over small things and then reconciling with friends happily sharing.Laughs,cries,giggles,joy,pain,love,friendship etc.And I am a normal human being,so I had my share of dark qualities.I might have had jealousy,angry over funny things,real fights which got physical sometimes and i was not always the winner.Flirting,teasing friends,making fun of almost everything around me.Laughing at the people who took life so seriously.I was a moron,very sure.I got good marks,I topped classes,came second at times;won medals in games,took part in activities.Oh man,I was not a boring guy,I see it now...

Life seems so great at times.When I was actually feeling and doing all the above stuff,I never realized I was having fun.I thought nothing then.I dint know any code for life,no idea about future.All were provided before asking;no waiting.I never knew what was hunger.No idea about the dark shadows of life that the poor faced.I was not born with a silver spoon but my parents provided me with more than what i deserved.Because parents know just love,not "deserve" calculations.They made me what I am and what I will be.All my life is their's.They never expected any reciprocation.The love and selfless care that means a million heavens to me..THANK U GOD FOR MY PARENTS AND THEIR LOVE.

My friends taught me that living for someone who is not related by blood to you is the most wonderful feeling of life.I had smiles, I had tears,I had rises and also falls.I had luster but dull at times.I hurt them sometimes and I made them feel bad.But,never they orphaned me.Life would've been a desert guys without you.You helped me,supported me,patted on my shoulder when i achieved something,gave me a warm hug when i needed it,offered me your shoulder to cry upon.Many many friends,made me feel special even in the times of utmost silence.Well that is friendship na after all?You helped me with girls issues and affair dramas too.GOD BLESS U ALL FOR ETERNITY.

I want to thank you-un namable one.You made me a different human being all together with love.What would it have been like without you in my life?You stayed within me and led me like a beacon.You had that trust which would fill the world.You convinced me that I am something.I owe you a lot.You'll shine in me .You will walk with me in every path i go.I see you even when I close my eyes. Love forever.

So much to the wonderful life which I can't even define
So much for the ecstatic love which I never could imagine
So much for the wonderful past that I can never relive
And so much for the shining future I haven't started to conceive||

I have just this present moment alive,like a melting ice in my hands
This may just drop out,before I can feel the existence|
To use it or not,its under my control,in my power
But I just can't grasp the universe with a single glance||

All the people who made me live my dreams
All those who were with me during my pinnacle and vale|
All those who met the inner self hidden in my depths
All those who lifted my spirits like a divine ale||

There was pain for gain in history
There will be blood even in the future|
Harsh winds creep into every man's story
Like a hammer to a stone in its way to a sculpture||

But its not curse,not pain not strife
Its a man's will and wisdom that shine his life||||

Will return to you
With love
Manoj
PS:fell in love with life again